sleepIess

heres the skinny:

im really not into art and the whole online community anymore. harsh, i know. im just so not into characters and roleplaying and species and adopts anymore?? i haven't drawn anything since december. its not that i don't care for art anymore, i just don't like everything that comes with digital art. i hate sitting at the computer, wasting time and staring at the screen. i can't bear the idea of putting as much time and effort into art anymore!! this is all very frustrating for me, because i was so so so passionate about art. it feels worse than art block. in all honesty, im a little scared. how could i lose so much interest in something that was a part of me?

at this point im just scrolling through and deleting messages without really looking at stuff. i don't care about what people are posting. i don't care about having an exciting page and characters. im not going to deactivate the account and give away all my points and stuff because im clinging to the hope that something will change my feelings. im not sure.

consider me on a hiatus.
and yes, i have tried forcing myself to draw. so many times. ive sketched so much and i just get angry  when i try.

if you want to know whats going on in my life, im active on instagram (sashafaul) and tumblr (consequencibility)

see ya

♡ write 10 facts about yourself
♡ answer the 10 questions from the journal you got tagged in
♡ make up 10 questions


>>i once pitched a tent in a tree and slept there overnight
>>i sleep naked
>>i prefer dogs over cats
>>i have been to 12 different countries
>>i climbed the exact same route as Alex Honnold (famous rock climber) two weeks before him
>>i am anemic
>>i considered joining the school wrestling team because I like and am friends with most of the guys on the team, but i didn't because i would be the only girl, and boys either forfeit matches against girls or feel them up while wrestling
>>i took a selfie with a wild grizzly bear but had to act quick because that thing was getting really close
>>i have 2 two inch long screws in my elbow
>>my worst injury is when i fell 15 feet (5ish meters?) while climbing and broke my elbow


✮ your view on obamacare ? even if ur not from murica
 > well i'm not as informed as i would like to be, but it has done a lot to help people, which i agree with

✮ where do you see yourself in 20 years ?
> im not quite sure. i would ideally like to have traveled as much as possible in my twenties, and maybe start looking for a place to settle down

✮ would you be a stay-at-home parent ?
> probably not. as of now, having kids doesn't really seem appealing, but im sure my ideas will change

✮ what are your favourite type of presents ?
> funny, thoughtful gifts. stuff that comes from people who know me really well

✮ what is your aesthetic / aesthetic goals ?
> one of those fit, skinny, graceful girls who always have lots of rings on and eat well and are always at the beach

✮ favourite genre of novel + why ?
> hm i like adventure/action? i don't read as much as i should these days, but i do like fantasy/ adventure

✮ books vs kindles. go.
> books any day. I don't like reading on a screen

✮ what are your music tastes ?
>indie//punk//alternative?? maybe a bit of folk?? i used to be into metal but not so much anymore

✮ how well can you cook ?
>im okay, but i dont cook very often, so i don't really know

✮ if you were an insect, what would you be + where would you live ?
> i'd like to be a dragon fly!! skimming around over a lake or pond and landing on lily pads!!

✮ zombie apocalypse !! do you die or survive it ?
> i would totally survive. i've got a whole plan that i made about a year ago with a friend. i know where i would hole up, what food i would eat, and i could definitely last a while

✮ geography vs history ?
> geography!! i love learning about places and the earth and cultures

✮ why are you on deviantart ?
> initially because of my love for art, but these days more because i have nothing better to do



my questions:
✮ what is your preferred jewelry? (ie rings, necklace, bracelets..)
✮ (if u want to go to college) get a sturdy job after or travel the world?
✮ ideal job?
✮ favorite language?
✮ which is better: underwater, high mountains, or rainforest? and why?
✮ how often do you bathe/shower?
✮ worst physical pain you have ever experienced?
✮ 5 star hotel or stunning campground?
✮ reading or running?
✮ what is your preferred drink?

i tag..
xXLionRampantXx skybIue beanlet

(hopefully no one noticed that i changed all the numbers to ten rather than 13 haha)

figured i ought to update this~


Name: Sasha
Age: 15
DOB: May 8, 2000
Gender: Female/ She
Height: 5'5
Place of Birth: Canberra, AU
Sexual Orientation: hm lets go with 'heteroflexible'
Heritage: 50% German, 50% American, (but born in Australia!)
Clothing style: I go in between basic white girl in leggings and white converse to hipster to look-what-i-found-in-the-thrift-store

Physical looks:
>strawberry blonde hair (past shoulders)
>relatively skinny
>loads of freckles
>blueish-green eyes
>round nose
>pale skin
>longish legs
>very fit

Likes:
>art
>rock climbing
>mountaineering
>hiking
>soccer
>music
>running
>fitness
>fashion
>the beach
>travel
>writing
>sharks!!!
>farming

Dislikes:
>messy/grimy rooms
>when people lie about their interests??
>being cold 24/7
>when people comment on my weight/eating habits
>going to the dentist lol
>hardcore republicans/rednecks/conservatives (only if they bring their views up a lot. I've got absolutely nothing against them but having their opinions shoved in my face again and again is rather frustrating)
>hunting just to kill (nothing against people who hunt and eat what they kill, but people who kill just to kill bother me)
>aggressive drivers/driving

Daily Life:
I usually run, climb, or do ab workouts during summer and early winter. usually do these activity's daily or every other day. in autumn i have soccer every day and in spring i have soccer four times a week. i usually go outdoor climbing for a weekend or a week in spring/summer. i draw everyday, though sometimes it's just journaling or sketching. I play with my dog and hang out with friends or just cozy up with netflix in my free time. i don't really like shopping but I love clothes and fashion so I shop on and off. Currently I don't have a job (I quit working at a grocery store a few months ago) but I'm planning on applying at a local coffee house this summer. I'm a bit of a flirt, usually when it comes to boys. I really like girls but i tend to be a bit more shy around them. im a bit of a beach bum, super into snorkelling and sunbathing and i utterly love swimming/being underwater and i love bridge jumping

ok so thats me!!

Journal entry from this week~ don't worry about it, I just felt like sharing!!


The pressure is building again. It's like a small, hot coal, pulsating inside my skull. Pushing at my eyes and sending little needles of pain into my ears. Sometimes I just want to reach inside my head and pull it out. These days I'm not sure if its the anemia or if it's something else. Of course the other symptoms, the fatigue and the nausea, those both have become such a regular occurrence that I hardly notice them anymore. I can usually tell when I'm reaching a low, because that stupid, golf-ball sized lump of hell grows in my skull again.

Early mornings and mid-evening seem to be the worst, when the whole house is quiet and still. I hate the isolation, but also revel in it. There is no need to hide my puffy, tear stained cheeks, and no need to circle back to reality. I can just sprawl on the couch and stare at the ceiling for as long as I want. When my family comes home from work, the strings attached to my arms and legs are yanked, and puppet-like, I am pulled back to life. Chores, homework, all that routine stuff has to be done. When dad comes home it all gets a little worse. The burning lump gets a little bit bigger, and starts making me hot and causes my ears to pulse with pressure. Weekends are somewhat easier, as though some water is poured on my coal. It begins to steam and fills my head with a thick, unyielding smoke. I never get anything done on the weekend.

 Upcoming holidays should be better, I tell myself. I'll be at home, I'll be eating again, and I'll have nothing to worry about. Of course holiday means family and family, a poorly used term, means stiff meals and tense evenings and general anxiety.

It's so difficult when some days I ache for feeling and other days I ache for numbness. My body is always a good indicator. Stomach pains, head rushes, and weak limbs tell me I need to be drowned in a soft, gray blanket of peace. Tingling limbs, especially in the pinky fingers, remind me of everything I could be doing, everything I should be doing. As the year draws to a close, I almost feel myself drawing to a close. My immune system is failing. My drive, my passion is failing too. When do I know when to let go?

points only, but anything upwards of fifty points for these characters. guys there is a royal fuckton of art that goes with most of these so click the stash link

closed species:
(no other art)

sta.sh/221e8o9rkgsk?edit=1




non closed species:
i have no idea where the other art is lol
sta.sh/215fv6f7fja0?edit=1
(ignore the rest of the app, the design is for sale despite the fact that its part of an rpg) sta.sh/2139d7gjy6oq?edit=1



i want these gone
also coding you can have full ownership of jelly the flauschkin

im kinda bored of deviantart and such :/// like i want to keep drawing but cats dont interest me anymore aaaa ive totally shifted gears?? like

idk,, sorry i know this is a very sudden change,, also note that i have no use for points anymore so im gonna give them away to people i love